It's Monday and I'm feeling pretty weak after last Thursday's treatment.  I had posted earlier that I was having an unusual time of feeling better when I normally feel horrible after treatment.  The improved feelings stayed for awhile, but later on things changed and it got harder.  Improvement was very off and on.  I would feel better, feel horrid, feel better, feel horrid, etc...  It pretty much followed that pattern the whole time and seemed to stay in the extremes.  No middle ground when you have cancer I guess.  Boo! 

Right now I'm at the stage where I feel weak and I'm beginning to stir and move about.  I thought it was funny that my goals today were to eat breakfast and shower.  Ha, ha!  Four days without showering is pretty sick.  I can thankfully say that I was able to complete my goals today. :)  I've managed to do a few other things, but I haven't been able to do much.  I'm mostly sitting around feeling restless, wishing I could do more than I can, and I have to lay down and rest a lot.  It's tough being sick when you want to get up and do something.  I am sure everyone can relate to that.  I'm also freezing mom and dad to death by having the AC on so much.  One symptom I'm really suffering from is that of being excessively warm!  Mom says it's like being around someone who is going through menopause.  I think that's funny! :)  Thank goodness for AC is all I can say.

I can't wait to feel better.  Usually by this time I feel like getting out of the house and visiting family, but I'm still not feeling too great...so I won't be going anywhere today.  I keep telling myself that tomorrow will be a little better and that seems to put my mind into a nice focused state where I can tolerate what I'm going through today.  So, hopefully tomorrow will be a strong feel good type of day.  Until then...I think it's time for a nap.  :)  I hope you are all doing well.

For those of you on the Rockwood side of the family, Donna is home from her surgery.  Keep her in your prayers!  Donna is my cousin and she's going through cancer too.  It makes me sad that she's going through this.  She's a very sweet lady and I'm sad she's hurting.  I think I'd rather just take everyone's cancer and have it myself, rather than see anyone else suffer with it.  It sure is a terrible disease.  I hope and pray Donna will be okay.  It sure makes me feel sad for her and for her family.  I love you Donna.  Hang in there.  One day at a time.  Mom and I always say that we aren't going to write the ending... to my cancer...that we'll worry about today, TODAY, and worry about tomorrow TOMORROW.  It's too hard when we think of the what ifs and all the information all at once.  ALL OUR LOVE!!!  :)